Sunday, April 24, 2016

Atuk's last family day

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

I entered the zainal abidin family just 2

years back, when i married my husband. 2 years is pretty short, but its so easy to commit sins to people i.e. thru backbiting, dzonn, etc. May allah protect us from committing these sins.

In only 2 years, atuk made visible his care and concern to me, his granddaughter in law. When zauji accompanied him overnight at the hospital last ramadhan, he literally asked more than 10 times "qayyum, oghang rumah ekau macam mano?". We had to reassure him many times that i will be fine (i was pregnant then).

Come february this year, we had a bbq meeting to plan for a family day, which was all atuks idea. He even sponsored most of it, and even made a wasiat that his remaining money in the bank is used for future gatherings. He even went to recce the suggested place, which is a big deal since he can barely walk 10ms without his tongkat.

At the family day, he looked truly happy. During sukaneka, he went down from the kampung house, and walked to the side of the field just to take photos of his warigh having fun.

When parting, i was lambat and atuk already closed his car door, ready for departure. But he opened it again just to kiss hafsah so lovingly, multiple times, which waa a first.

And it was the last. He passed away the following morning.

My reflection from these series of events is that.. sometimes we feel that something is unnecessary. For example buying things for your wealthy parents (while you are struggling to make ends meet without touching your savings), or, helping out to cook extravaganza iftars as it consumes so much ibaadah time and energy, or spending your valuable weekend and petrol money to travel for family vacations. If it is still within your means, why not? If it makes them.happy, may Allah accept it as an act of birrul waalidain. Oppotunities for these acts do not last forever. Seixe them and utilize them well. They are our gates to jannah.

Catatan june lepas, apabila arwah Atuk tinggalkan kami secara mengejut. Allahummaghfirlahu warhamhu wa'afihi wa'fu 'anhu

Friday, January 15, 2016

Jiran kami orang Palestin

Bismillah,

Sebelum memori ini meninggalkan ingatan, lebih baik saya jot down.

Makcik Dermawan datang menziarahi saya . Dia bawa bersama sebungkus makanan."Untuk jiran Palestin kamu, tolong hantarkan ya Atiqah," kata beliau.

Saya terkedu. Wah, ada orang Palestin tinggal di sini. Tapi erm, kenal pun tidak, bagaimana nak ziarah?

Makcik Dermawan menceritakan jiran saya itu tinggal sehelai sepinggang, tanpa sebarang peralatan atau perabot dirumahnya. Bersedia untuk bila-bila sahaja berangkat ke Mesir dan seterusnya Gaza, apabila border dibuka. Sempadan boleh dibuka bila-bila sahaja, dan kebiasaannya hanya untuk tempoh yang sangat pendek. Maka beliau hidup dari luggage sahaja.

Amanah, maka saya hubungi juga jiran Palestin. Ceria, dan malu-malu dia datang bertemu saya. Menyusahkan sahaja, katanya. Berkali-kali dia menegaskan, dia okay sahaja. Beliau pulang membawa bungkusan makanan berisi salad, lemon, roti, dan traveller mug berisi air kopi panas.

Saya berjanji pada Makcik Dermawan, akan followup jiran itu. Akan mengajaknya makan, akan bertanya khabar.

Janji maniskah?

Monday, January 11, 2016

Tulis

Bismillah,

Para ulama’ salaf zaman dahulu telah menunjukkan semangat untuk menulis dan mereka justeru hidup penuh dengan keberkatan, di mana tulisan mereka mencerahkan umat manusia hingga ke akhir zaman.

Dengan usia mereka yang terbatas, menulis menjadikan kemanfaatan ilmu mereka tidak terbatas. Menulis adalah mengikat jejak kefahaman.

Akal kita sebagai kurniaan Allah ‘Azza wa Jalla, begitu agung daya kekuatannya untuk menampung sebegitu banyak data, namun, kita kadang - kadang menghadapi kesulitan untuk mengeluark an apa yang telah tersimpan lama di dalam jalur rumit otak kita.

Maka menulis adalah menyusun kata kunci untuk membuka khazanah akal. Demikianlah kita fahami dari kalimah indah Imam Asy-Syafi’ie ; “Ilmu adalah binatang buruan dan pena yang menuliskan adalah tali pengikatnya.”

Menulis juga adalah sebahagian dari tugas iman kerana makhluk yang pertama ialah pena, ilmu yang pertama ialah bahasa dan ayat yang pertama berbunyi “Baca!”

-Tulisan Ustaz Wan Sanadi, dari buletin Tarbiatuna IV.

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Nota Fatihah

Bismillah,

Alfaatihah mengandungi semua tema alquran. Mcm thesis statement.
1. Aqidah
2. Ibadah
3. Manhaj.

Sebab tu jadi pembuka alquran. Turut menjadi pembuka semua surah. Bacalah apa2 surah sekalipun slps fatihah dlm solat, maksud akan tetap flow.

Juga mengajar adab doa. Puji Allah kemudian baru permintaan.

Utk khusyuk dlm solat
1. Bayangkan arrahman arrahim Alah, perkara2 yg kita syukuri. Bayangkan maaliki yaumiddeen. Betapa Allah penguasa dan akan membalas segalanya.
2. Hadirkan di dalam kepala golongan yg diberi nikmat yg kita nak contohi (Rasulullah saw, para sahabat, etc), golongan maghdhub dan dhollin yg kita nak jauhi.

Sumber: buku khowatir quraniyah tulisan Amru Khalid, dan nota Abu Hafsah.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Why Hafsah


Why Hafsah, people ask. 

Muslim role model.

I’ve always wanted a simple two syllable name for my children. But I also want my children’s names to be an opportunity to educate others on muslim role models that are less known in our society.  So whilst looking for a name for my daughter, I read the Prophet Muhammad saw’s seerah, trying to look for an unpopular female companion’s name. The names were either too long, too common, or merely kunyas (ummu ___). So I moved on to read the history of the khilafahs, looking for a female figure that made major contributions for Islam. But they were mostly a repeat of the prophet’s companions’ names!

The quran keeper.

And then I stumbled upon the story of how hafsah was given the honor to ensure the safekeeping of the then written-but-not-yet-compiled mushaf. This was because she memorizes Allah’s verses very well – something I have always wanted for my own children! The fact that she was the quran keeper was new to me.  I then looked into Hafsah’s lifestory, and found out that she was THE prophet saw’s wife that was referred to in surah attahrim.

Humane personality.

I immediately fell in love. Hafsah did what she did (in surah at-tahrim) due to jealousy, which I find really humane. A personality that I can relate to, as I am occasionally an emotional wife (lol), and I make mistakes every single day. She is a beloved person to Allah as an ummulmu’mineen, but she has emotions, and she made a mistake (which I do so often everyday). Jibreel even testified to the Prophet saw that Hafsah is such an obedient servant to Allah, always fasting, praying, and gives sadaqah. All these show that even as an imperfect human being, we can gain Allah’s pleasure. It shows the rahmah of Allah, and how we just need to pray hard to attain it, biiznillah.

Hafs means lion.

Hafs is also ‘Umar radhiyallahu’anhu’s kunya, he was called Abu Hafs. Sheikh Google even states that this nickname of ‘Umar does not even have any relations to his daughter’s name, but was referring to his fierce personality. Allahua’lam.

So by naming my precious first daughter Hafsah, I pray that she will be as fierce as a lion in fighting for Allah’s cause, keeps Allah’s verses in her heart, and contribute to the ummah in her own way. Aameen.

p/s: From day 1 of life, the nurses and other people claimed that my baby is so garang with her extremely loud crying, and serious facial features. Indeed a name is a du’aa eh? :D

p/p/s: Only much later an ukhti pointed out that Atiqah was the name of Hafsah bint Umar’s mother (i.e. Umar radhiyallahu’anhu’s wife). I didn’t realize that connection previously. So sayang, we have bonded since 1400 years ago!!!

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Cloth diapering


The more reasons to use cloth diapers. I was not confident in the beginning, hence bought very minimal number of newborn cloth diapers. Among the reasons not to use clothdiapers were: 

-Laundry sedia ada pun terkejar2, nak tambah lagi amount of laundry we have to do? 

-And risau mcm mana nak basuh poop of breastfed babies (known to be very liquidy and err explosive). 

So we still bought disposable diapers, just in case.

Tapi once kelengkapan materialnya sudah cukup (hafsah fits her onesized dipes yang memang ada jumlah yang cukup), memang jatuh cinta. Never looked back again.

Kesimpulan: kadang kita kedekut nak invest into something takut tak istiqamah. Tapi sebenarnya, dengan adanya kecukupan materi, inshaallah akan meniadakan alasan untuk kita berpaling ke belakang.

Friday, March 6, 2015

interview

Bismillah,

My parents made it a point to meet their sons in laws and interview each of them before we (my sister and I) even proceed with our taaruf. Well, mestilah kan nak kenal. But in my husband’s first meeting with my parents, he was briefed about my younger brother, ammar (from now on will be addressed as ‘our muzakkir’).

Back then I felt that it was unnecessary, I was even slightly embarrassed as I thought that my parents gave out too much information, as our muzakkir is a private family matter. I believed that my parents are inshaAllah going to live a long life, and we will discuss about his carer later on in life.

Oh boy I was so wrong. Now that muzakkir’s izzues are escalating, it becomes apparent that he is one of the major factors in every decision we make, such as where we choose to live, daerah for tarbiyyah, etcetera. Which obviously are something the husbands have to accommodate to as well. All praise to Allah for granting my sister and I very understanding and accommodating husbands. Alhamdulillah. Our muzakkir, is, after all, our sibling.

My parents were right after all, there are some matters you just have to clarify before marriage.

Ummu Hafsah.

p/s: My office carried out a language assessment test. And the result for my writing component was far from outstanding. I have to start writing again to brush up my flair for writing, inshaAllah.